On May 13th of this year, 2011, my wife and I confirmed our long awaited suspicion that we might be pregnant. Someone asked me what that felt like. It was something that I had never experienced, so naturally people wanted to know my reaction. I described it to them like a warm hug from Heaven; it is something indescribable. A few days later, we had her doctor confirm our drug store revelation. We were very happy!
A couple of days later, we had to go to the emergency room. Our fears became reality when the doctor told us that our baby was gone; known in the medical world as a miscarriage. We were in both physical and emotional pain as we mourned our loss.
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| Patroness of the Unborn |
That unforgettable day was one month ago today, and now today is Father’s Day. It was very difficult in the following days after May 19th. My consolation was my faith in God and the most perfect prayer of all, Mass.
The height of Mass is when Heaven and earth meet during the Liturgy of the Eucharist. In that special moment in Mass, my baby and I can be together. My baby is in Heaven, first held by our Blessed Mother and taken to Jesus Christ to share in His Glory with the Innocents and Saints. And every time I can find time to go to Mass, I get to be with her in a truer sense. Gotta love daily Mass! The following prayer that helped me is found in a Father’s Manual I bought at a Catholic store:
To a Child in Heaven
My dear little saint, now alive in Heaven, you have gone home to God to be eternally happy and are now in joy in the company of the Holy Innocents there. It was a thing hard for me to understand when you were taken from us, for parting with you has caused me grief that few can fully understand. Yet in all my grief I am happy, very happy for you, because I know the joy that is yours.
Your joy is now my joy too because I can always feel that I had a part in bringing it to you; and, now that you are in heaven, I realize that you are mine in a truer sense than you could ever be on earth. I cannot lose you now through sin. While parting with you was hard, I would not wish you back because I know that you are happier than I could ever make you were you with me still.
Help me, as you now can with your intercession, that I may be completely faithful to all my duties here below and merit to join you in eternal joys where there will be no more sorrow or parting from those we love. Amen.
My dear little saint, now alive in Heaven, you have gone home to God to be eternally happy and are now in joy in the company of the Holy Innocents there. It was a thing hard for me to understand when you were taken from us, for parting with you has caused me grief that few can fully understand. Yet in all my grief I am happy, very happy for you, because I know the joy that is yours.
Your joy is now my joy too because I can always feel that I had a part in bringing it to you; and, now that you are in heaven, I realize that you are mine in a truer sense than you could ever be on earth. I cannot lose you now through sin. While parting with you was hard, I would not wish you back because I know that you are happier than I could ever make you were you with me still.
Help me, as you now can with your intercession, that I may be completely faithful to all my duties here below and merit to join you in eternal joys where there will be no more sorrow or parting from those we love. Amen.
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| St. Joseph, Patron of the Unborn |
So today in Mass on Father’s Day 2011 and being the Solemnity of the Most Holy Trinity, I received one of the best gifts a Dad can have - a hug from Heaven. In my heart my baby is a girl, so, family members of mine and JoVann, when you get to Heaven and a little person comes to welcome you to Heaven and says "Hi Tia / Hi Tio," that’s our little Saint Maria Jose Villalobos. I can’t wait to be greeted by her one day, God willing. :')
